According to the CDC Website:

  ZIKA virus is spread to people though mosquito bites. The most common symptoms of ZIKA virus disease are fever, rash, joint pain and conjunctivitis (red eyes). The illness is usually mild with symptoms lasting from several days to a week. Severe disease requiring hospitalisation is uncommon. No vaccine or medications are available to prevent or treat ZIKA infections’.

According to the GUARDIAN : 

‘The ZIKA virus outbreak in Latin America could be a bigger threat to global health than the Ebola epidemic that killed more than 11,000 people in Africa.’




The Guardian’s claim came ahead of an emergency meaning of the W.H.O. Scheduled for Monday (today), which will decide whether the ZIKA threat – which has been linked in many cases to a sharp rise in cases of foetal deformation called Microcephaly – should be rated a global health crisis.

Which sounds pretty serious don’t you think?

If a little dramatic.

A virus causing abnormalities in children, and one which has no vaccine or medicine to prevent or treat either the symptoms or the complications, and as yet, is spreading at a rate which cannot even be checked as those infected are believed to be asymptomatic.


ZIKA VIRUS: What you need to know

I have selected the two items above from the hundreds that are currently available online, and of course are being pumped throughout the mass media outlets, as they are the easiest for anyone to source, and will give the reader some idea of the type of conflicting stories that are available should one decide to look beyond what is currently being reported.

Take it from me, some of what is being reported out there is truly terrifying, and I do not know of one parent-to-be who would not be concerned to a degree, and would also be desperate to find out as much as they can – about how a virus, dubbed ‘The Shrunken Head Disease’ and ‘The Pinhead Virus’ by some media outlets, is going to affect them and their families.

And if this virus is as virulent as they say it is, and can circulate unchecked, and shows no visible symptoms as well as cause the type of physical abnormalities that are being graphically illustrated by the mass media …. why is it, that anybody with $599 (£416.15 €550.30) can purchase it freeze-dried online?


Or is that not a fair question to ask?

Freeze-Dried ZIKA Virus (ATCC VR-84) $599


‘Never a truer word spoken in jest”


It would be difficult to avoid the mainstream media coverage that has been given over to the video recently released by Animal Aid, in regard to the cruelty of three slaughterhouse workers in Yorkshire.

It has been shown on SkyNews, the BBC, ITV and the majority of online and printed newspapers are running the same story.As a result of this, many people who were not aware of what Halal ritual slaughter really involves, are now slowly realising what has been happening

However, what the mainstream media are NOT saying is that the footage they are showing, is not a one-off or isolated incident, and is not even a true representation of the overall picture. A quick internet search will bring up pages and pages of the expected MSM related hits and references, which are all running differently worded versions of the same story as SkyNews and the BBC, which concentrates on this one incident

Which is where most people will stop searching unfortunately.

As an example, the link below can be found on the seventh page of returned hits from Google – which contains additional information from Animal Aid which appears to have not been reported by the MSM.

“This is the tenth slaughterhouse in which we have filmed undercover, and it is the ninth to be caught breaking animal welfare laws.”


Ten Abattoirs where similar undercover filming was carried out?

So taking that as an average, does that also mean that 90% of British slaughterhouses are operating under similar levels of avoidable and needless levels of cruelty?

How many British Abattoirs are also Halal Certified, therefore exempt from European regulations on humane slaughter?

“EU law requires animals for the food chain to be stunned (made unconscious) prior to killing, so that death should be painless. There are exceptions for religious slaughter, notably for Shechita (the Jewish method of killing animals for food – Kosher meat) and Muslim Halal. The Muslim and Jewish communities, totaling nearly 25% of the world population, have similar philosophies in this regard. Their slaughter rituals are deemed so important for their religious observance that outlawing them could be considered an attack on their religions.”


This is what The Scientific Panel on Animal Health and Welfare (AHAW) of the European Food Safety Authority have said:

“When a very large transverse incision is made across the neck a number of vital tissues are transected including: skin, muscle, trachea, oesophagus, carotid arteries, jugular veins, major nerve trunks (e.g. vagus and phrenic nerves) plus numerous minor nerves. Such a drastic cut will inevitably trigger a barrage of sensory information to the brain in a sensible (conscious) animal… such a massive injury would result in very significant pain and distress in the period before insensibility supervenes.

“The Council considers that slaughter without pre-stunning is unacceptable and that the Government should repeal the current Halal exemption.”

“Cuts which are used in order that rapid bleeding occurs involve substantial tissue damage in areas well-supplied with pain receptors. The rapid decrease in blood pressure which follows the blood loss is readily detected by the conscious animal and elicits extreme fear and panic. Poor welfare also results when conscious animals inhale blood because of bleeding into the trachea. Without stunning, the time between cutting through the major blood vessels and insensibility, as deduced from behavioural and brain response, is up to 20 seconds in sheep, up to 25 seconds in pigs, up to 2 minutes in cattle, up to 2½ or more minutes in poultry, and sometimes 15 minutes or more in fish”


Halal slaughter requires the animal be bled out while still alive and aware and in agony.

It leaves the slaughtered meat filled with toxins (including Adrenaline) released at the moment of death, as the blood is removed while the animal is dying and therefore is not present in sufficient quantities to remove the remaining toxins.

The animals have to watch their unfortunate companions die during each blood letting festival, smelling their fear and raising their own stress levels. These stress chemicals “marinate” the meat in hormones known to raise levels of aggression and violence in nearly all mammal species (which includes humans of course).

It allows for a surprising range of cooking methods, including even some “tar tar” dishes (raw or nearly raw), allowing both diseases and the released chemicals and hormones that were not removed by the ritual slow bloodletting practice and half-measured cooking, to be freely spread.


“The Bitterest pill is hard to swallow, if I took it for a hundred years, I couldn’t feel any more pain”

Are people becoming less intelligent?

You could certainly be forgiven for thinking so, as only a few minutes spent watching terrestrial television programming, reading the mainstream media and the majority of social media content, will give you only three examples of how ‘dumbing down’ appears to have become the accepted state of the majority of humanity.

So how could this have happened?

Is it an entirely natural state, inasmuch as the human race has reached the peak of it’s achievements, and has in a way, effectively stopped evolving and has even began to regress?

I ask this because I recently received an email from a medical student in the United States, who I am in regular contact with, and has been carrying out her own research based around her belief that the U.S. government, is covertly reducing the IQ of the American population using various methods.

Is such a thing even possible, and if so, what method could be used to accomplish this?

And for what purpose?

One of the methods she has uncovered being implemented in the U.S., is via the Food and Drug Administration (FDA), the UK equivalent of which, is the National Institute for Health and Care Excellence (NICE), which is an executive non-departmental body of the Department of Health.


So what effectively, could reduce a person’s IQ?

There are certain medical conditions of course, that can have a detrimental affect on a person’s Intelligence Quotient, only one of which is, although rarely discussed, is a deficiency of Vitamin B12.


Apart from the widely recognised condition known as ‘Pernicious Anaemia’, a chronic or severe deficiency of B12 will also prevent the forming and the repair of the insulation which surrounds the nerves – a condition which corresponds directly to incidences of a low recorded IQ and also contributes to the condition you may know as ADHD.

In certain cases, a person lacking in sufficient amounts of B12, may also become prone to, and succumb to other, more severe physical conditions, such as Multiple Sclerosis.

There are a number of well researched articles available, although no serious research has been done recently, that also show that the damage resulting from B12 deficiency is almost always irreversible.

So, in effect, if it was possible to reduce the B12 levels of the vast majority of an entire population, and knowing that the results of this deficiency would be permanent, it would prove to be a very effective method of control I would imagine.

But how could something like a B12 deficiency, possibly become so widespread and affect so many people?

And how could something on that scale even be implemented?

From the research undertaken, it now appears that it can be accomplished in a number of ways, one of which is a deliberate omission from the labelling of the most common food products, of potassium content for example.

Potassium is an important mineral, which besides supporting good heart health, and balancing electrolyte levels, also regulates nerve impulses.

A severe deficiency of Potassium, can result in poor functioning of the nerves, *permanent neuropathy – and also, a marked reduction in IQ levels.

Some people are already aware of the dangers posed by a deficiency of potassium in the body, and ingest daily supplements in an attempt to redress the balance.

Unfortunately though, most of the potassium supplements available, only yield around 99mg, which when you realise that the RDA is around 4.7g, supplementation may also be inadequate.

So with an already low intake of potassium in the average diet, reducing the intake of another substance which is vital to maintaining IQ levels, like Vitamin B12, would also have a detrimental effect on a person’s intelligence surely?

If you have recently had a blood test, doctors will undoubtedly assure you that the normal range for B12 should be anywhere between 130 to 600 l/ml.

If you present anywhere within this range, anywhere outside the United States that is, you would be classed as being severely B12 deficient, as 650+ nB/ml is considered to be normal.

Many doctors in the UK, however, will view a patient inside the 130 – 600 range to be within prescribed limits, so it appears to be becoming more prevalent on this side of the Atlantic also.

When you also consider the often restrictively high cost of good quality high-yield B12 supplements, and the reluctance of most doctors to prescribe high dose B12 injections to anyone who has not been diagnosed with pernicious anaemia, you could be fooled into thinking that it’s not that big a deal.

After all, your doctor knows best right?

There are many incidences that can be found online where people have had no other option than to obtain B12 in phials that can be purchased on the Internet – the reason being, that their doctors flatly refuse to acknowledge that their low levels are in any way responsible for their incidences of ill-health, constant lethargy, and impaired cognitive skills.

Once these people have improved their B12 levels in this way, the improvement is nothing short of miraculous, and that change can happen within a few days.

Author and Blogger Graham Ellis is only one example of the curative powers of B12.

However, if restoring oneself to previously enjoyed levels of good health was that simple, surely everyone should be made aware of it right?

So why are these warnings not printed on the most widely consumed foodstuffs?

And why is there not a warning on another product, that outside of junk food outlets and sugar-laden soft drinks, has an equally massive advertising budget?

A product that is swallowed in huge numbers daily, by an ever-increasing number of people, mainly due to decades of consuming these heavily advertised and promoted ‘junk’ foods and nutritionally deficient ie: cheap/affordable produce.

I am referring to the multitude of ‘Indigestion’ remedies that are starting to fill entire shelves of some supermarkets and chemists more and more.

These indigestion, or ‘Antacid’ products work by reducing the excess stomach acid which is produced by consuming foodstuffs which are entirely unsuitable for good digestive health, and therefore affect ones overall levels of wellbeing.

The same products that are not only the most heavily promoted and mainly aimed at the younger members of society by slick advertising campaigns, or are the cheapest options available to those on a budget or a low income.

When these products are consumed regularly, and over a significant period of time, the need for the subsequent ‘Indigestion’ remedies, becomes almost a matter of necessity, as the cheaper or ‘junk’ products have an obviously detrimental effect on the body.

And when you realise that regular use of these so-called ‘Indigestion’ remedies can also permanently destroy the human body’s natural ability to absorb Vitamin B12, you may also start to see how these things are designed not only to promote ill-health – but also a dependence on a product that is not only harmful to your physical well-being, but is also making you, in effect – less intelligent.

Something to think about perhaps?

But it’s not all bad news, as one bunch of Broccoli is quite cheap and can yield up to 2g of high quality, natural potassium.

There is also another method that may well prove worthwhile of further investigation, as there is almost no available research available, although there is I believe, some that has been carried out in Germany.

Alpha Lipoic Acid (ALA) has been shown to have the ability to effectively ‘cure’ or reverse the effects of the nerve damage caused by Potassium and B12 deficiencies.

Although, and I must stress the point that there is almost no published research which will provide evidence of this, there have been cases where the administration of high-dose B12 and 600mg ALA twice daily – has helped test subjects not only effectively stop using prescribed ADHD medication altogether, but also gained around 18 IQ points during the period in which they were tested.

This combination of treatments proved particularly effective because the ALA apparently renders B12 marginally fat-soluble, thus easier to absorb, and is especially beneficial if one’s body has stopped absorbing B12 due to regular anatacid use.

But again, I have found that the original sources of this have all but disappeared from the Internet, and are not, I repeat not going to be recommended, or even considered as an option by healthcare professionals.

*”Neuropathy is short for peripheral neuropathy, which means nerve damage in the peripheral nervous system. Only nerves outside of the brain and spinal cord are involved, so peripheral neuropathy does not include nerve damage in the central nervous system”

The Vaccine Hoax is Over.

Documents from UK reveal 30 Years of Coverups.

Andrew Baker, Food Freedom News

A Freedom of Information Act in the UK filed by a doctor has revealed 30 years of secret official documents showing that government experts have:

1. Known the vaccines don’t work
2. Known they cause the diseases they are supposed to prevent
3. Known they are a hazard to children
4. Colluded to lie to the public
5. Worked to prevent safety studies

Those are the same vaccines that are mandated to children in the US.

Educated parents can either get their children out of harm’s way or continue living inside one of the largest most evil lies in history, that vaccines – full of heavy metals, viral diseases, mycoplasma, fecal material, DNA fragments from other species, formaldehyde, polysorbate 80 (a sterilizing agent) – are a miracle of modern medicine.

A Freedom of Information Act filed in the US with the CDC by a doctor with an autistic son, seeking information on what the CDC knows about the dangers of vaccines, had by law to be responded to in 20 days. Nearly 7 years later, the doctor went to court and the CDC argued it does not have to turn over documents.

A judge ordered the CDC to turn over the documents on September 30th, 2011.

On October 26, 2011, a Denver Post editorial expressed shock that the Obama administration, after promising to be especially transparent, was proposing changes to the Freedom of Information Act that would allow it to go beyond declaring some documents secret and to actually allow government agencies (such as the CDC) to declare some document “non-existent.”

Simultaneous to this on-going massive CDC cover up involving its primary “health” not recommendation but MANDATE for American children, the CDC is in deep trouble over its decades of covering up the damaging effects of fluoride and affecting the lives of all Americans, especially children and the immune compromised. Lawsuits are being prepared. Children are ingesting 3-4 times more fluoride by body weight as adults and “[t]he sheer number of potentially harmed citizens — persons with dental fluorosis, kidney patients tipped into needing dialysis, diabetics, thyroid patients, etc — numbers in the millions.”

The CDC is obviously acting against the health of the American people. But the threat to the lives of the American people posed by the CDC’s behavior does not stop there. It participated in designed pandemic laws that are on the books in every state in the US, which arrange for the government to use military to force unknown, untested vaccines, drugs, chemicals, and “medical” treatments on the entire country if it declares a pandemic emergency.

The CDC’s credibility in declaring such a pandemic emergency is non-existent, again based on Freedom of Information Act. For in 2009, after the CDC had declared the H1N1 “pandemic,” the CDC refused to respond to Freedom of Information Act filed by CBS News and the CDC also attempted to block their investigation. What the CDC was hiding was its part in one of the largest medical scandals in history, putting out wildly exaggerated data on what it claimed were H1N1 cases, and by doing so, created the false impression of a “pandemic” in the US.

The CDC was also covering up e financial scandal to rival the bailout since the vaccines for the false pandemic cost the US billions. And worse, the CDC put pregnant women first in line for an untested vaccine with a sterilizing agent, polysorbate 80, in it. Thanks to the CDC, “the number of vaccine-related “fetal demise” reports increased by 2,440 percent in 2009 compared to previous years, which is even more shocking than the miscarriage statistic [700% increase].

The exposure of the vaccine hoax is running neck and neck with the much older hoax of a deadly 1918-19 flu. It was aspirin that killed people in 1918-19, not a pandemic flu. It was the greatest industrial catastrophe in human history with 20-50 million people dying but it was blamed on a flu. The beginning of the drug industry began with that success (and Monsanto was part of it). The flu myth was used by George Bush to threaten the world with “another pandemic flu that could kill millions” – a terror tactic to get pandemic laws on the books in every state and worldwide. Then the CDC used hoax of the pandemic hoax to create terror over H1N1 and to push deadly vaccines on the public, killing thousands of unborn children and others.

(CDC will not release the data and continues to push the same vaccine.)

The hoax of the vaccine schedule is over, exposed by FOIAs in the UK.

The hoax of the CDC’s interest in children’s lives has been exposed by its refusal to respond to a doctor’s FOIAs around its knowledge of vaccine dangers.

The 1918-19 pandemic hoax has been exposed by Dr. Karen Starko’s work on aspirin’s role in killing people.

And despite refusing to respond to FOIAS, the CDC’s scandalous hoax of a 2009 flu pandemic and its part in creating it, was exposed by CBS NEWS.

And the Obama administration, in attempting to salvage the last vestige of secrecy around what is really happening with vaccines, by declaring agency documents non-existent, has made its claim of transparency, non-existent.

But pandemic laws arranging for unknown vaccines to be forced on the entire country are still in place with HHS creating a vaccine mixture that should never be used on anyone and all liability for vaccines having been removed. Meanwhile, a Canadian study has just proven that the flu vaccine containing the H1N1 vaccine which kills babies in utero, actually increases the risk of serious pandemic flu.

Americans who have been duped into submitting their children to the CDC’s deadly vaccines, have a means to respond now. People from every walk of life and every organization, must:

1. take the information from the UK FOIAs exposing 30 years of vaccine lies, the refusal of the CDC to provide any information on what it knows about those lies, and the Obama Administration’s efforts to hide the CDC’s awareness of those lies, and go to their state legislatures, demand the immediate nullification of the CDC vaccine schedule and the pandemic laws.

2. inform every vet. active duty military person, law enforcement people, DHS agents and medical personnel they know, of the vaccine hoax, for their families are deeply threatened, too, but they may not be aware of it or that they have been folded into agency structures by the pharmaceutical industry (indistinguishable from the bankers and oil companies) that would make them agents of death for their country with the declaration of a “pandemic” emergency or “bio-terrorist” attack. It is completely clear now that the terrorism/bioterrorism structures are scams so that any actions taken to “protect” this country using those laws would in fact be what threatens the existence of Americans.

Was it was aspirin that killed millions in 1918-19?


Now it is mandated and unknown, untested vaccines with banned adjuvants in them that threaten the country with millions of deaths. At the same time, the CDC is holding 500,000 mega-coffins, built to be incinerated, on its property outside Atlanta. Not to put to fine a point on this, but it’s clear now that the CDC should not be involved in any way with public health.

Thanks to the Freedom of Information Act (FOIA), we know that vaccines are not a miracle of modern medicine. Any medical or government authority which insists vaccines prevent diseases is either ignorant of government documents (and endless studies) revealing the exact opposite or of the CDC’s attempts to hide the truth about vaccines from the public, or means harm to the public.

Thanks to the Freedom of Information Act (FOIA), we know the vaccine schedule is a hoax.

The health danger to American children and adults are vaccines.


Further Reading:



The news that Comedian Robin Williams has died, allegedly taking his own life, has brought about the only to be expected ‘Conspiracy Theories,’ involving numbers, significant dates, an illuminati human sacrifice, LSD dealing allegations and anything else that appears to be doing the Internet rounds at the present time.

I do not subscribe to any of these theories however.

Robin Williams was only one of thousands of people, many of whom are in, or were in the public eye who suffered from, or are living with Manic Depression, or Bipolar Disorder every day of their lives.

Bipolar is no respecter of wealth, intelligence, power, status, gender, ethnicity, personality or position, and until you have actually lived with it’s endless fluctuations, with it’s kaleidoscope of colours which have been likened to butterflies who fly with razor wings inside your mind, which exist alongside the ever-present spectre that is the desolate blackness and utter futility – you can never, ever, truly understand the nature of this particular beast.

And it can affect anyone, at any time.

It is often said that ‘genius walks hand-in-hand with madness’ and for those with bipolar, that is very often the case, as many of the most gifted, and most talented out there, are said to have, or have had the condition, and it is a notoriously thin line which separates the two.

Angelina Jolie
Catherine Zeta Jones
Amy Lee
Mel Gibson
Amy Winehouse
Richard Dreyfuss
Sinéad O’Connor
Stephen Fry
Jeremy Brett
Jim Carrey
Rosemary Clooney
Robert Downey Jr.
Patty Duke
Carrie Fisher
Connie Francis
Linda Hamilton
Margot Kidder
Vivien Leigh
Burgess Meredith
Spike Milligan
Ben Stiller
Tracy Ullman
Jean-Claude Van Damme
Robin Williams
Ludwig Von Beethoven
Tim Burton
Francis Ford Coppola
George Fredrick Handel
Vincent Van Gogh
Ted Turner
Buzz Aldrin
Larry Flynt
Ray Davies
Peter Gabriel
Jimi Hendrix
Charley Pride
Axl Rose
Del Shannon
Phil Spector
Sting, Gordon Sumner
Tom Waits
Brian Wilson
Sylvia Plath
Theodore Roosevelt
John Daly
Ilie Nastase
Patricia Cornwell
Graham Greene
Edgar Allen Poe
Mark Twain
Virginia Woolf

The very first article I published on this site, related my own attempt to put into words what it was like living with this condition, which can be found HERE, but I have also re-published it at the end of this article with some small changes which reflect my current status.

Some have described it as a brave thing to do, sharing what is quite obviously a very personal view of having a ‘Mental Illness’, although there are of course, those who have used it to attack and try and discredit and ridicule me via Social Media sites like Twitter for example.

I have little doubt that there are others who have been targeted in a similar manner.

Would they be so venomous and vocal in regard to any of the people on the list above I wonder?

I am still here of course, I have an extremely strong and at times, very protective support network, but others may not be so lucky.

THE DARK PLACE (Updated)….

“This is one of those subjects that most people will say has no place in their lives.

Maybe they are right, maybe not, but I do not really care, it is just my point of view.

I suffer from an condition which will affect me for the rest of my life, an ‘illness’ which is very much feared, ridiculed, and mostly misunderstood by the vast majority of the population.

I am Bipolar

My own journey into madness began when I was nineteen years old, the prime of my life.

In the great scheme of things, it could be so much worse; it can be treated – to a certain degree, and there are periods (sometimes months or even years) when there are no outward ill affects.

It’s not Leukaemia or Cancer or Alzheimer’s, or even HIV/Aids, all of which (and rightly so) gain public sympathy and research funding, whereas a ‘Mental’ illness, still conjures up images of half-human wrecks shuffling along the corridors of Victorian grey-walled asylums, and therefore people thus afflicted are to be avoided at all costs.

In it’s own way, Depression can be as debilitating as any number of physical diseases, and is of greater prevalence than many people realise.

One in every three people in this country will suffer from or know of someone with a mental illness at some time in their lives.

Misunderstanding walks hand-in-hand with ignorance – have you heard the people who say ‘I feel depressed today’, a comment which never fails to make me want to grab them by the throat and scream at them.

Severe depression is not waking up feeling a little miserable, everybody gets the ‘blues’, true depression is not wanting to wake up at all, and then waking up furious because you have woken up.

You do not want to get out of bed because there is no point, it’s a way of killing time as opposed to killing yourself.

Winston Churchill once described his depression as ‘A visit from the black dog’, Sophocles said ‘When a man has lost all happiness, he is not alive, call him a breathing corpse if you will’.

I myself call it ‘The Dark Place’.

It is existing as opposed to living, functioning on autopilot if you can function at all.

It’s living in chaos because you cannot see the chaos.

It’s been addicted to the euphoria of the mania that makes you feel invincible, almost superhuman in your words and actions.

But, you are also so totally alone, detached from everything, including yourself and your actions, forever at risk from sinking into utter desolation and despair, and that my friend is a very dangerous place to be.

Every meaningful relationship in my life has suffered as a result of my condition, I was always seen as being too ‘Too Much Trouble’ for most people to deal with.

I seemed to always end up in a lot of trouble, spending much of my teenage years and early adulthood in the Care and Prison System.

The odds are that everyone of you knows at least one person who has had a taste of the dark place, if you are lucky, you will also have got them back.

Manic Depression affects about 3% of the world’s population, usually the most gifted and talented members of society, and kills many thousands of people every year.

It is a ‘whole’ body illness, involving the body, your moods and thoughts. It affects the way you eat and sleep, the way you dress and the way that you feel about yourself and others.

It can stem from many things; stress, grief, personal trauma, or even more frustratingly, from nowhere at all (like my own condition).

Because depression is such a vague, undecipherable term, it is equally difficult to explain; it covers a variety of conditions and, until recently, the Medical profession were ill-equipped to deal with any kind of depressive illness.

As it is not a broken limb or a stomach or heart problem, the Doctors seemed unable or unwilling to deal with it.

This often has the result of totally inappropriate and excessive medication. Over the last three decades, I have been prescribed depressives, stimulants, sleeping pills, anti-psychotics, tricyclics, monamine oxidase inhibitors (MAOIs), Temazepam, Diazepam, Lithium and even Beta Blockers.

I have even been subjected to a short course of ECT (Electro Convulsive Therapy) which was deemed necessary at the time, and was a singularly unpleasant experience.

I have most recently, been blessed with a very capable female MH Consultant and CPN who have not only given me the first clear diagnosis of my condition, but have assisted me to the point where I am now ‘Flying Solo’ and completely free of any medication.

Which has had the effect that I have been stabilised, probably for the first time, to a fairly unique position where I feel that the benefits of awareness and self-treatment, using sheer bloody-mindedness and willpower, have finally freed me from the chains of the side-affects of any prescribed chemical medication.

The Chinese believe that in order to conquer a beast, you first have to make it beautiful.

Confronting the beast of depression in order to tame it is the first, and indeed, hardest step of all.

At first, the vast majority of prescribed treatments were of very little use – and even worse, were damaging my physical well-being.

Doctors have told me, ‘to pull myself together’, and to ‘work through it’, while at the same time, prescribing enough Diazepam to wipe out a small town.

For many years, I flatly refused to take the treatment that was on offer, preferring instead the ‘freedom’ of my illness as an alternative to the restrictions placed around me by the medication.

Many people will never admit to having any sort of depressive illness because of the stigma attached to anything even vaguely attached to madness.

There is after all, still an all too common misconception that mental illness equals madness.

I myself cheerfully admit (at least when I’m not there) that my manic episodes, make it seem to the casual observer like I’ve totally ‘lost it’, ‘going nuts’, or ‘going into one’.

A depressive illness is not a sign of physical weakness, nor is it a condition that can be simply wished away. Yet, in an ever moving, changing and competitive world, people are finding themselves under more stress than ever before, exacerbated by the inability to admit the truth of their condition.

I have never told my family about my Illness, they seem happy believing that I have been abusing drugs and/or alcohol for most of my adult life, and was at best ‘A Lost Cause’, the only person who really knew me, and therefore understood, was my father.

He was the only one who continually took me in when I was at my lowest, never questioning, and never judgmental. In fact, he was the only member of my family who even expressed an interest in my condition.

The world I have always chosen to live in, has in general, been far more accepting and indeed tolerant of ideas & behaviour which contradict and threaten public perceptions.

It is never easy to acknowledge that your friends and loved ones are in difficulty. All too often, it is easier to make a sometimes superhuman effort to not let the facáde slip, and to keep up the persona that the world sees.

It’s nearly always the case that the people who have the problems are the ones that that you never expect.

Unfortunately, living this way means that nobody can ever truly know the person behind the mask.

I have been truly alone most of my life, always too afraid to reveal the euphoric and beautifully colourful chaos that is one half of me, and the utter desolation and darkness that makes up the remainder.

What someone in trouble needs is understanding and support, and that kind of support is not easy to find or even to give.

During my last ‘vacation’ to the Dark Place, my then partner was terrified every time I left the house, half – expecting to never see me alive again.

That relationship, like many others, have been absolutely torn apart by my condition.

(Volatile and disturbingly dangerous relationships go hand-in-hand with the condition).

The knowledge that somebody can be there for you, can really make a difference. In a crazy sort of way, having Manic Depression has made me acutely aware how precious life really is when I get to stand in the light.

I have been there so often, and I have stood on the edge of the abyss many times, looked over into the darkness, and was able to take a step back, and each time I leave my Dark Place, I appreciate the light so much more.

So why, you may ask, do I have to go there anyway?

Simple answer? I do not know.

That is the nature of the beast I’m afraid, the very point of Depression is that there is no point, there are no answers and there appears to be no logic to any of it.

The bottom line is…. It happens.

End of story.

Living in the world I have chosen, having my children and the few people of my own choosing around me, has helped me get through the darker times, almost as much as any medication.

These things are vitally important to me, and are maybe, just maybe, important enough to prevent me from taking that final step and staying forever in the Dark Place.

Not everybody has that, and sadly, not everybody makes it through.”


Following on from an earlier article on this site, “BRING ME SUNSHINE”, it would appear that mainstream scientists have now agreed (in a roundabout way) that a lack of exposure to the sun can cause a myriad of health problems.

Their latest about turn, after years of promoting the myth that exposure to the sun is harmful, may be of interest to men of a certain age.

The rates of Prostrate Cancer, which has added to the spiralling rates of other Cancer Types, are at an all-time high, due in no small part to the declining levels of natural sunlight (Chemtrails), and the bogus medical advice which has led to an epidemic of covering the body with products that block the absorption of Vitamin D.

*The best source of Vitamin D is Sunshine*

The Press Association May 1st 2014

Lack of vitamin D increases the chances of men at high risk of prostate cancer being diagnosed with an aggressive and potentially deadly form of the disease, a study has found.

The link is so strong that scientists believe blood levels of the vitamin could provide a way of screening patients

“Vitamin D deficiency could be a biomarker of advanced prostate tumour progression in large segments of the general population,” said lead scientist Dr Adam Murphy, from Northwestern University in the US.

“More research is needed, but it would be wise for men to be screened for vitamin D deficiency and treated.”

The scientists examined data from a wide-ranging group of more than 600 men from the Chicago area who had risk factors for prostate cancer, such as raised levels of the blood marker Prostate Specific Antigen (PSA) or a family history of the disease.

Each man was screened for vitamin D deficiency before having a sample of his prostate removed for analysis.

The biopsy samples showed that lacking vitamin D was strongly associated with aggressive forms of prostate cancer, even after adjusting for influences such as diet, smoking habits, obesity, family history and calcium intake.

American men of European origin were 3.66 times more likely to have aggressive prostate cancer if they were vitamin D deficient. For those of African origin, lacking vitamin D increased the risk 4.22 times.

African-Americans with severe vitamin D deficiency were also more than twice as likely as those with normal levels of the vitamin to be diagnosed with prostate cancer.

The findings are published in the latest edition of the journal Clinical Cancer Research.

Dr Murphy said: “Vitamin D deficiency is more common and severe in people with darker skin and it could be that this deficiency is a contributor to prostate cancer progression among African-Americans. Our findings imply that vitamin D deficiency is a bigger contributor to African-American prostate cancer.

It is a good idea to get your (vitamin D) levels checked on a yearly basis. If you are deficient, you and your doctor can make a plan on how to reverse it through diet, supplements or other therapies.”

Have you heard of “The Cancer Act” that was introduced in 1939?

It does appear that not many people know anything about it, yet many thousands of people have, and will continue to suffer from it’s effects.

Basically, it is a particularly restrictive and pernicious piece of legislation which prevents people from writing or speaking about the FACT that it is indeed possible to cure cancer using alternative methods.

The Cancer Act may also be the reason why many websites and blogs are now being threatened with fines of up to £1000, simply for alerting people to the very real dangers associated with conventional treatments.

cancer act 1939

If you do even the most basic research, you will find that among the excuses that have been put forward for the introduction of this act, was to ‘Protect the public from Quackery and Charlatans,’ but it now appears far more likely, to ensure that all types of cancers, were only to be treated by ‘Radium-Based’ methods (Cancer Inducing Radiation).

It may have also been seen, as being neccesary to introduce such an act to protect the profits of Pharmacutecal companies, as in 1938, there were people only too aware of the risks and were offering people viable alternatives.

Even in 1939, the medical information that the Act was based on, was out-dated and believed by some more enlightened people, to have been blinkered, even obstructive and harmful in it’s purpose.

Cancer seems to be everywhere nowadays, social networks are crawling with slick advertising campaigns encouraging people to raise awareness by doing something vaccous, while the mainstream media have been kept busy trying to persuade people that it’s a disease that has been around far longer than anybody thought.

The Daily Mail, The Huffington Post, The International Business Times and the BBC website all ran similar stories.

The WHO have not been quiet either.

“According to the World Health Organization, Cancer cases are soaring each year. Data indicates an upward trend from 12.7 million cases in 2008 to 14 million in 2012. Cancer related deaths have also increased from 7.6 million to 8.3 million since 2008.”

So what is behind these recent ‘revelations?’

Why is cancer being so aggressively promoted as having the potential to become one of the biggest killers in human history?

Despite the exhaustive tissue testing that was carried out on the mummies, only one case of cancer has been detected.

And that was only described as being a ‘Type’ of cancer.

Fossil evidence of cancer is also pretty thin on the ground, mainstream scientific literature has only provided a few dozen, mainly disputed, examples in animal fossil samples.

Even the study of thousands of Neanderthal bones has provided only one example of a ‘possible’ cancer.

Cancer first made an appearance in scientific literature in 1761, where nasal cancer of snuff users was detected.

The latest findings are also open to question, as the detected cancer-like problems could easily have been caused by leprosy or even varicose veins, which were common in ancient Egypt.

The first operations for breast and other cancers actually began in the 17th Century.

The first scientific reports of tumours have only occurred during the past 200 years.

So it would appear that cancer is yet another man-made disease and is something that we can eradicate.

However, preventing such a lucrative disease would not be a popular decision among those who manufacture the ‘cures’ would it?

Nor among those who have contributed towards creating it’s current levels either, I shouldn’t think.

Further Reading.




The Lancet, the world’s oldest and most prestigious medical publication, has published an article which classes Flouride as a Neurotoxin.

It places Floride in the same category as Arsenic, Lead and Mercury.

Many in the Alternative Media have been writing about this for a long time, it now appears that doctors have also confirmed that is no longer a ‘conspiracy,’ but you are indeed being openly and blatantly poisoned.

Download, read and share the article below widely.


‘If vaccines play absolutely no role in the development of childhood autism, then why are some of the most popular vaccines commonly administered to children, causing autism in primates?’

This is the question people really should be asking, after a study conducted by scientists at the University of Pittsburgh (UP), Pennsylvania revealed that many of the infant monkeys given standard doses of childhood vaccines as part of newly researched autism symptoms.

For their analysis, Laura Hewitson and her colleagues at UP conducted the type of proper safety research on typical childhood vaccination schedules that the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) should have conducted, but never has, for such regimens.

What this team discovered was groundbreaking, as it completely destroys the mainstream myth that vaccines are safe and pose ‘NO RISK’ of autism.

Presented at the International Meeting for Autism Research (IMFAR) in London, the findings revealed that young macaque monkeys given the typical CDC-recommended vaccination schedule from the 1990s, and in appropriate doses for the monkeys’ sizes and ages, tended to develop autism symptoms.

Their unvaccinated counterparts, on the other hand, developed no such symptoms, which points to a strong connection between vaccines and autism spectrum disorders.

Included in the mix were several vaccines containing the toxic additive Thimerosal, a mercury-based compound that has been phased out of some vaccines, but is still present in batch-size influenza vaccines and a few others.

Also administered was the controversial Measles, Mumps, and Rubella (MMR) vaccine, which has been linked time and time again to causing autism and various other serious, and often irreversible, health problems in children.

Ethan A. Huff