An Open Letter to my stalker
“Dydd Sant Hapus Ddewi”
I know that you will read this.
I know that you will because you watch everything I do, you have done so for more than a year now.
I have seen your latest attempt to silence me, trying yet again to intimidate me into keeping quiet, this time by targeting my wife and five year old child.
You have used their photographs, and even gone to the trouble of using editing software to disfigure the eyes of your latest targets.
*Enucleators: Removing or ‘gouging out’ the eyes of their victims, is a rare trait (thankfully) of serial killers… and jilted teenage girls in case you are interested *
You delete your threats as soon as you post them, don’t you?
I guess you had not realised that there are many eyes on you now, you are the one being watched, every time you log on to Twitter, or troll the darker corners of the internet.
There are Journalists watching, some big hitters in both the mainstream and the alternative media.
Lawyers have taken an interest too, as have many ordinary, decent people who are appalled and sickened by your obsessive and disturbing behaviour.
They have seen your threatening Tweets and even read some of your blog, they have watched the series of creepy YouTube video logs you published, expressing a wish that I should be ‘Put Down’ too.
They are also very aware of your latest attempt to gain support and sympathy, by claiming ‘Alarm & Distress’ against somebody who stood up to you.
All are of the same opinion; that you are a sociopathic, obsessive and dangerous individual, and you have something you are desperately trying to hide.
So, why did you choose to stalk me?
Why do you continually harass my family and friends?
Were you worried that the truth was finally going to emerge at last?
The real story of Bryn Estyn, one which is a world away from what was written by the media and what the public think they know.
A lot of things have changed in 22 years, including many of the original accusations haven’t they?
You gave so many interviews to the media it must be difficult to remember what you said I would imagine, considering the things you have backtracked on and now say you were ‘misquoted’ in nearly every interview you gave.
So what was the truth?
Why didn’t you sue them, as you normally would?
After all, there were some damning revelations that were printed.
It would be hypocrital of you to continue bleating and complaining about things that are already in the public domain, like photographs you uploaded yourself for example;
Or media articles you willingly contributed to.
You really did not expect people to come forward after all this time did you?
It must have really angered you when they started speaking out I would imagine.
No longer children who were scared of you, but adults with clear memories, who still remember everything.
Voices that you had not heard before, who were not at Ewloe, who had not given testimony to Waterhouse, and more importantly, who were not part of the deception that you had helped put in place.
People who you had not been able to ‘persuade’ to reinforce the story you had constructed in order to prevent certain facts coming to light.
You thought you had ‘dealt with’ them all didn’t you?
Hadn’t you noticed that things have moved on now?
Information is so much easier to source these days, and although you have been very busy trying to delete all traces of your involvement, you obviously underestimated the tenacity of some good people, who flatly refused to be intimidated by you.
Decent people that you have gone to great lengths to silence, including getting them suspended from social networks, by enlisting the help of some equally nasty characters who, you were yourself publicly threatening only a few months previously.
You still like to issue threats don’t you?
It has also been noted how certain people you were especially vile towards, are now at your beck and call, hanging on your every Tweet and blog post.
A more suspicious person would think from their actions that they were party to your actions all along.
It’s a game to you isn’t it?
One, that by your own admission you have been ‘playing for twenty five years,’ and think of yourself as being quite the expert.
Did you play similar games with others, such as the boy you cruelly tormented at Bryn Estyn for many months, the one you proudly related to author Richard Webster, in August 2004, as being “Your Play Station”?
What an awful thing to say about a man who ended up taking his own life, allegedly due to what you and others, coupled with subsequent events, had done to him.
Do you need a reminder of what you did?
You must remember making him lick dirty ashtrays, eat earthworms, perform oral sex on a dog and forced him to sit on an upturned chair, the leg of which, entered his backside in what must have been a singularly painful and humiliating manner.
That is only some of what has been written about what happened to him, how much more did you put him and other vulnerable kids in the big house through?
He was petrified of you and your gang wasn’t he?
The constant verbal goading and physical assaults, which ultimately made him ‘lose it’ on a regular basis, which you and your small group of cronies enjoyed immensely.
Most of the younger and weaker boys that entered Bryn Estyn, especially during your time as chief bully and Peter Howarth’s ‘Hired’ Muscle, lived in constant fear of what may happen to them.
(I did say ‘Hired’ muscle as even back then, everything you did would have cost somebody.)
Was that what you were worried about people finding out?
You must have known that there were books written which graphically illustrated your role.
Did you know that Bryn Estyn was known throughout the Welsh care system as a place ‘filled with perverts?’
That was long before the accusations were made public.
Lads that came back to south Wales shared their experiences of how the bullies ran the place.
Lads that witnessed the activities and know what happened.
Keeping the younger boys in line with beatings, fear and intimidation, making them do the most unspeakable things for the bullies pleasure.
Do you remember?
Because they certainly do.
You really tried hard to dissuade people from asking questions, didn’t you?
What were you so afraid of?
You were more than happy to spill your guts to the media, looking dutifully sad, you gave more than 200 Interviews in all didn’t you?
You must remember that?
You were worried enough to write to Paul Foot, at Private Eye Magazine, to whom you expressed great personal concern about ‘charges bring pressed’ against you.
What was the reason you were so concerned about being prosecuted?
Hadn’t you been telling anyone who would listen, that you were an abused child, a poor, defenceless victim of the north Wales care homes?
What specific incident in particular, out of the numerous acts of cruelty, abuse and beatings you personally inflicted on smaller, weaker and vulnerable children, caused you to fear the possible consequences?
Could it have been that there were lads in Bryn Estyn who ‘softened up’ some of the weaker boys who were then selected for something even worse?
Were you worried about people finding out about that?
You were not worried about killing that lad’s pet Budgerigar though, were you?
The one that the staff purchased for him to compensate for the awful home life and social isolation he had endured, before his arrival at the big house.
Because they felt sorry for him.
You didn’t though did you?
The same bird you conveniently forgot about when being interviewed by the author Richard Webster, but somebody remembered didn’t they?
How else could he have been able to include the incident in his book?
Because you certainly did not tell him.
So what was it that you were so concerned about?
You remember what happened to that boy you humiliated and brutalised at Bryn Estyn though, I am certain of that.
Did he grow up into the man who attempted to kill you in the latter part of 1989?
You must rememebr with clarity the day he came to your squalid flat in Napier Square, Wrexham, armed with a large knife, with the intention of exacting revenge on the person he knew played a large part in destroying his childhood.
You barricaded yourself inside then didn’t you, getting inside the wardrobe cowering in fear?
You still bear the scars across your face as a lasting reminder.
Did you experience the same feeling of terror and helplessness that you had inflicted on others, right there in your own home?
And true to form, you then called the Wrexham police to protect you from a man half your size, armed with a large blade and years of pent up hatred of you and what you did to him.
You even made a claim for compensation against him, didn’t you?
Even after your testimony sent him to prison.
You must remember that.
It’s always about your need for revenge and cold hard cash isn’t it?
You always needed to blame somebody or something for what you did.
Cowardly and disgusting behaviour given the circumstances that led up to those facial injuries being inflicted on you.
A better man would have accepted it as being long overdue, a man with a conscience and sense of decency would have at least.
Not you though.
You can make up any story you want to justify your actions, continue to play your ‘victim card’ for as long as you like, but it does not absolve you, neither does it make what you say the truth – or make it right.
It never did.
And it never will.
It’s not just me you have stalked either is it?
You have a long history of creepy behaviour, harassment, bullying and attempting to intimidate people you see as a threat.
People who see exactly what you are.
People who know the truth about you.
Weren’t you the first person in the UK to be charged under newly introduced Stalking laws?
The story made it into the Independent newspaper, the 14th of May 1998 I believe.
It’s in the public domain, just an online search away.
You were ‘charged’ with printing and distributing 400 leaflets to inform people there was a ‘Paedophile’ living in their village.
You were quoted as saying that it was ‘your duty to inform people,’ but again we only have your word for that, as it’s not the only time you have accused an innocent person of being a sex offender is it?
You recently posted online that I too was not only a paedophile, but also a ‘Convicted’ wife beater, my children were ‘in physical danger from me and should be taken into care’ and that my wife ‘enjoyed threesomes with our five year-old son!’
*You were too much of a coward to use your own name though weren’t you?*
So you will have to forgive me if I would rather believe any one of those people who have been unfortunate enough to meet you, and also found you to be an arrogant, bullying and compulsive liar with zero credibility.
Here is a very recent media article for you to think about, from the Daily Mail.
NOTE: **Richard Webster did not believe your stories either did he? He was also at a loss to understand why, the bully boy of Bryn Estyn had later teamed up with someone who was known to have hated him enough to try and kill him after leaving the care system. He also found it unbelievable, that the previously bullied man had made a statement to the police on the 6th of January 1992, which directly contradicted an account he made a year previously. One which now alleged a harrowing story of abuse by a certain staff member, as opposed to the earlier account he narrated that the big house was, ‘the best place he had ever been in’.**